You stay up for 16 hours.
He stays up for days on end.
You take a warm shower every morning to help you wake up.
He goes days or weeks without running water.
You complain of a "headache" and stay in bed.
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.
You complain about how hot it is.
He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.
You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.
He doesn't get to eat today.
You make your bed and wash your clothes.
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.
You get your hair done
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.
You're angry because you worked 5 minutes over.
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.
You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.
You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.
He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Mood changes are happening again. I barely heard from him this week and all I got was a text message saying they are moving him but he can't tell me where or why. All he said was "it's military reasons I can't tell you". I feel like I'm dealing with someone who is in the FBI and everything is TOP SECRET. It is absolutely killing me. I haven't heard from him since that day and I just wish I could know where he is on his way to or why they are making him transfer. I didn't even get to say "I love you/be safe/take care" it was just a text and now I'm sitting here wondering. I miss him a lot and starting to become moody again. As if not seeing him isn't upsetting enough and now I am becoming jealous of other couples and angry at girls who say I haven't seen my boyfriend a few days or this week pisses me off. But I need to be strong and not let it effect me. So Frustrated!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
So here I am rambling about my thoughts during this deployment. But I never really explained myself for it. I came on this site looking for support and advice. My boyfriend is a Navy Seabee and currently located in Afghanistan.This is his second tour but my first. He left January 4th and was sent to California until 2 weeks ago where he is now overseas. These past 4 months have been difficult yet easy all at the same time. The reason I say this is because we had constant communication. He had his cell phone and would always text or call whenever he had the chance. We even used the webcam a few times when he had a free moment. So it was easy because I knew he was safe and around. Now he is in a foreign country the cell phone has been turned off and we barely get to talk to each other. It's only been 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel it. I miss talking to him and hearing his voice every night. I know I will get through this. It almost feels like you're in a breakup but not because there isn't a burning hurt deep down inside only loneliness. Today was my second overseas phone call. I heard planes flying in the background but it wasn't just any plane it was the real deal F-14's. That gave me the goosebumps. Reality has finally settled in. He's not in California anymore, it's wartime. His orders state he won't be coming home until next January. I'm proud to say I am almost at the midway of this deployment but at the same time I would like it to be over already. I feel like I've been stuck in the airport waiting for the weather to clear. I am trying to cope with his deployment and other issues. As General Holden on Army Wives said "We are the lucky ones. Soldiers train for their mission but for families their mission is to carry on. How do you train for that?" He couldn't have said it any better.