- You don't mind the random phone calls
- The smallest contact (simple email) from your soldier makes you feel like a million bucks
- The recruitment commercials on TV and in the Movie theater make you cry because you're so proud.
- "No news is good news" becomes your motto
- Planning care packages and putting them in the mail is very exciting.
- You can't stand girls who talk about missing their boyfriends who live 15 minutes or an hour away. You want to yell "drive and go see them" because if you had the chance you would jump on the first plane to go see your soldier no matter how far it is.
- You go from happy, to sad, to lonely, to angry, to proud and back to happy in matter of an hour.
- You wear his pajamas to bed
- You get up in the middle of the night to check your email
- You suddenly have an obsession with anything military related
- You see someone wearing an army, navy, usmc shirt and you get this overwhelming urge to talk to them.
- You make friends with strangers online just because they are in the same situation as you are and the only ones who truly understand what you are going through.
- You are already deciding on what to wear to the airport.
- You know all the time differences between where you are and Afghanistan.
- You talk to your friends and family so much that they know everything about him. His full name, birthday, favorite TV show and color etc..
- You sleep with your phone right next to you under the pillow.
- When you try to explain to civilians what your boyfriend does for a living they give a blank look because they don't understand a third of what you said.
- Finally.. You are oceans apart and you're always counting the time difference on your hands.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
So I've had this on my mind when I'm out with my friends and feeling lonely. I keep reminding myself military relationships are the product of many tears born both in happiness and despair, nights alone wondering where he is, if he's safe. It's looking at pictures, knowing that's the only way I can see his face, calling my voicemail to hear his voice, and not washing his clothes until they've lost his scent. But it's all worth it in the end, because I know I have one of the purest loves in the world because my Soldier truly knows the meaning of Honor, Courage, and Commitment, not only to the U.S. Navy, but to me. And that makes everything worthwhile.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
A coworker said to me today, "time is always on your side". At first I got annoyed thinking how would they know? Are they feeling how I am? Do they know what it is like to have your best friend and love of your life leave you because the government says so? Do they know what this emptiness feels like? You know you're strong but it does hit you like a truck where all you feel is lonely, scared and sad. Every minute feels like hours and every hour feels like a day and a day feels like forever. I stopped counting down the days until he comes back home because it is just complete torture. 255 days left...sigh. So now I have gone to the month method, 8 more months doesn't sound as bad as 255 days! If that's even the case he could be extended up to 2 years! But the days do go by fast when I'm kept busy but I always miss him. Everything thing brings back memories whether its a song, food, movie, tv show, friends talking about what he would say in a given situation...etc. I feel like time has stopped when I think of him. But after giving some thought she was right. No matter what time won't go by any slower, because every minute, hour and day will bring me closer to him so a little optimism never hurts!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
They say mission first people always. But that's crap and what does it mean anyway? Because the military comes first always period and we deal with it or we move on. It doesn't matter if your significant other is a colonel, general, sergeant, infantry or in the navy, army, marine... because worrying about your soldier feels exactly the same at wartime. Forget the rank and branch because people are just people. I say this because I was talking to a girl at work whose husband is a marine. She thinks that because my soldier is in the Navy it is nothing compared to what she has gone through. It doesn't matter we all feel the same at wartime when he has deployed.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
This is my first time having a blog. Sure I've written in journals but never actually made something personal showed to the public. So here we go! Where do I start? As you can tell my title explains it all! Someone very close to me gave the idea of writing a blog in hope that maybe you might have some comments, give advice or just interest. You may be going through the same thing as I am or maybe not. I did this for all military girlfriends/wives. I know they have support groups for the military spouses but not everyone can participate, this is my way of contributing a lending ear and maybe you might be feeling the same as I do. So here it goes!