tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86464273539038774942024-02-20T12:41:12.606-05:00Supporting Her HeroSo you fell in love with a soldier? While a man in uniform is attractive, dating a man in the military is different than a normal relationship. Being a military girlfriend is tough.Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-27623956110838018192010-11-28T09:31:00.002-05:002010-11-28T10:17:09.170-05:00The Wait is Over!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">No more fear, no more days without contact, no more counting down the days, no more DEPLOYMENT. The wait is finally over! He has been home for 2 weeks and I have to say it has been the best 2 weeks in a long time. I was nervous and excited right before he came home. Wondering if he had changed, would there be awkwardness between us?. Honestly, I feel as if we never departed from each other and the deployment never even happened. 10 months was long enough and I am so happy to have him home earlier than expected. I can now say I have officially accomplished something and it feels so good. I am very grateful for my friends who were always there to make me laugh, listened to my worries and troubles, and kept me super busy. They have always been there for me this year and I couldn't have asked for better friends. You all know who you are and I really appreciate everything you have done. Especially Pete, Christina and Joseph. You three have truly been incredible and were always there for me when I needed you. I appreciate everything you have done for me. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">As Spiderman once said "with great power there also comes a great responsibility". This is very true and definitely my motto for this deployment. I have learned so much and have become a stronger and better woman. So glad the wait is over! </span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-83156332678099430612010-10-24T11:44:00.000-04:002010-10-24T11:44:40.292-04:00Emotional Stages of Deployment<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I think I understand my feelings more now and come to a realization. I have kept a journal since the day he left for Afghanistan. Writing down all the emotions to see how I progress through this deployment. After reading it all I came up with stages of deployment. Check it out! </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Stage 1: Anticipation of Loss</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">6-8 weeks prior to deployment</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Feelings: denial, fear, anger, resentment, hurt</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">During this time it is hard for a woman to accept the fact that her significant other is going to leave her. I found myself crying unexpectedly at songs, TV shows and other things that would normally not affect me. These incidents allowed me to release some of my pent-up emotions. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Stage 2: Emotional Withdrawal</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">1 week prior to deployment</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Feelings: Confusion, anger, pulling away</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">This occurred during the final days before departure. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I know I should be enjoying these last few days together but all I wanted to do is cry. The last night that I saw him I cried so hard and couldn't stop because I knew that next morning he would be gone. I felt sick to my stomach and there was this invisible giant punching me in the stomach as we said our goodbyes. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Stage 3: Emotional Confusion/Disorganization</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">1-3 months after departure</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Feelings: sense of abandonment, need, loss, emptiness, pain, disorganization</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Now matter how prepared you think you are the actual deployment still comes as a shock. You start to familiarize yourself with him not being around anymore, not planning social gatherings for two only one, restlessness kicks in, feeling awkward in social situations, becoming depressed, feeling so alone, maybe even withdrawing yourself from your friends. You start to think oh my god I don't think I will be able to last the 300..something days this is absolute torture. Your thoughts become can I move on from this?</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Stage 4: Adjustment/Recovery</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Midway of deployment</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Feelings: confidence, hope, calm, established</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">At this point I started to realize hey I'm doing OK! I established new activities and routines. I am more comfortable with him being so far away and it doesn't hurt as much. I had a new sense of independence and felt proud in my ability to cope alone. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Stage 5: Expectation of Reunion</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Feelings: excitement, high expectations, fear, apprehension</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">This where I am at right now. The long list of things do while he is gone is still unfinished. The pace picks up and become a cleaning fanatic, dieting, planning homecoming. I have these an incredible feelings of joy and excitement in anticipation of his return. I looking forward to the day I pick him up and all the activities we have planned after! Do I plan him a big party or let the mother do it since I gave him a going away party? Where should we have it? Do I make a sign for him at the airport? What do I wear? Will my job understand I need to take days off because I haven't seen him in 10 months? All these questions come into my head and I feel like I'm constantly thinking about it. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Stage 6: Homecoming</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Feelings: EXCITEMENT! EXCITEMENT! EXCITEMENT! RELIEF!!!! </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse;">Not sure how this going to feel or happen yet.. but I'll be updating you all! </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">1. Depression: You start to feel alone in this and just want to be with nobody but him. You cry almost every night and sleeping in bed without him just isn't the same. You think nobody understands you and just want to be alone. </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">2. Numb: You feel like you're starting to get used to him not being around and keeping busy is a great thing and you don't cry as much but you still miss him like crazy. </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">3. Middle of Deployment: Very absorbed in staying busy and keeping positive! You only cry once in a while but it's natural. </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">4. So Close Yet So Far: EXCITEMENT AND WOW WOW WOW it's coming to an end! (where I am now)</span></span><br />
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patiently, faithfully, waiting for my other half to return safely to me. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>[BACK OFF]</b></span><br />
It is now August 1st and I cannot believe how fast time has flown. 7 months have now gone by and it shouldn't be too much longer until he comes home; 5/4 more months to go. I am really surprised at myself and this deployment has been a real eye opener for me. It allowed me to focus on myself and realize what I want in this life. Someone wrote this letter on a website that I log on to frequently and it is very touching.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Dear Military Wives/SOS,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">While I have never had the pleasure of meeting you </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">or your husband, fiancée or boyfriend, I felt the need to write you and</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">express a very deep feeling that I have in my heart.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I, as a person, am not brave. I do not tackle things</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">head on, as I hate confrontation. I will travel 100 </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">miles out of my way just to avoid a conflict. I am an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">American woman that has no idea what is going on in </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">the military other than what I hear on the news. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I have never had to let go of someone so that they</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">could go fight for people that they didn't know,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> p</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">eople that sometimes do not appreciate or</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">understand what they are fighting for. I have never</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> h</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">ad a sleepless night of worry because of a report</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">that another bomb has exploded and I still haven't </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">heard from my husband. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I have never had to wait for months on end to hold</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">the one that I loved. I have never had to tell my</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">children that daddy wasn't coming home tonight </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">because he was so far away fighting for something</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">that they aren't yet old enough to understand.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I have never had to hold my head high and suppress</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">the tears as I hear that it will be at least another six</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">months of separation before my loved one gets to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">come home. I have never had to deal with a holiday</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">away from the one that I thought I would share</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">every day of my life with. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I have never had to feel the panic rising in my heart</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">at the sound of a ringing phone or knock at the door</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">for fear that it is the news that everyone is terrified</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">of getting. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">For the reasons listed above, I can not tell you that I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">understand how you feel. I can not tell you that you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">must be strong. I can not say that you shouldn't be</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">angry, because you "knew what you were getting</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">into when you married a military man". I can not say</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">these things because I have never had to walk in</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">your shoes. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">What I can say for certain is that because of your</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">unselfish acts of bravery and your husbands</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">willingness to stand up for those who see him as "just</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">another soldier", I will never have to walk in your</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">shoes. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I do understand that as a military wife you are</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">expected to uphold a certain amount of control, but I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">never understood how you could do it, until now. I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">have figured out that you are not like other woman.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> Y</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">ou are of a special breed. You have a strength</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> w</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">ithin you that holds life together in the darkest of</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">hours, a strength of which I will never possess. The</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">faith you have is what makes you stand out in a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">crowd; it makes you glow with emotion and swell</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">with pride at the mention of The United States of</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">America.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">You are a special lady, a wonderful partner and a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">glorious American. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I have more respect for your husband than I could </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">ever tell you, but until recently I never thought much </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">about those that the soldier leaves at home during</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">deployment. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Until this moment I could never put into words</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> e</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">xactly what America meant to me. Until this</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">moment, I had no real reason to. Until I heard of</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">you.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Your husband, fiancée or boyfriend and his military family hold this nation</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">close, safe from those who wish to hurt us. But you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">and those like you are the backbone of the American</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">family. You keep the wheels in motion and the hearts</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">alive while most would just break completely down.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Military families make this nation what it is today.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">You give us all hope and you emit a warming light at</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">the end of a long dark tunnel. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Because of you and your family, I am able to be me.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I am able to have my family. I am able to walk free </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">in this great land. Because of you and your family, I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">can look ahead to the future with the knowledge</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">that life is going to be okay. Because of you and your </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">family, I can awake to a new day, everyday. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I realize that you are a stronger person than I will </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">ever be because of these things and I just wanted to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">take the time today to say thank you to you and </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">your family for allowing me that freedom. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I will never be able to repay this debt to you, as it is</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> u</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">nmatchable. However, I hope that you know that</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">no matter where you are, what you are doing, what</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">has happened today, or what will happen tomorrow, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Your man will NEVER be "just another soldier" to </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">me! And you, dear sweet lady, will never be</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">forgotten. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">You are all in my prayer's everyday and I pray that </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">God will bring you back together with your loved</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">one safely.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />
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</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232; font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">May God Bless You!</span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-12666834010033597692010-07-10T12:35:00.000-04:002010-07-10T12:35:54.015-04:00MixtureI've been trying to post something for a couple of weeks now and I can't seem to put my thoughts and feelings into words. I'm so drained of energy and emotions. This week has definitely been a tough one but here I am staring at the screen for a bit until I can get my thoughts together. I have to say I made it halfway through this deployment and 6 more months to go. No matter how impossible it may seem that you can't go on it is possible in time, the grief lessens. It may not go away completely, but after awhile it's not so overwhelming. You start to get used to the fact that time will go on and sooner than you know it he will be back. This year's July 4th I was very patriotic and proud of our soldiers. I dressed up in red, white and blue and wore his dog tags proudly. As proud as I was it was also a very hard day. At night watching the fireworks made me miss him so much. It just reminds you of the sacrifices that were made. I was able to talk to him that morning and should feel really good about the fact that we can stay in touch but it is always so bittersweet. I miss him so much it hurts. I guess I was just having one of those bad days. When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see if struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through. With all that said... "Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference" by Winston Churchill. As hard as this has been for me already, it really hasn't been all that bad. Along with sadness, that's a whole mix of emotions that I've been feeling too.Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-64599695737342386092010-07-10T10:23:00.001-04:002010-07-10T10:23:57.958-04:00Loving a Soldier<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Loving a soldier is a high price to pay,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">loving him truly is hard when he's away.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It's being alone with nothing to hold</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">it's being young, but feeling old</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">it's having him whisper his love for you</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">it's whispering back that you love him too.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">There comes a kiss and a promise for more,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">as his plane slowly rises to soar</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">reluctantly, painfully, letting him go,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">while your insides are dying from wanting him so,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">watching him leave with eyes full of tears,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">standing alone with your hopes, dreams and fears.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It's sending a letter with the stamp upside down,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">to a far away love in a far away town.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It's going to church to kneel and pray,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">and really meaning the things that you say.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Being in love will foster your dreams,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">of that far away soldier your mind fairly beams.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Days go by, no mail for a spell,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">you wait for some word to hear that he's well.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Then a letter arrives, and you've given in,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">to open his letter and read it with a grin,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">yes, he is well and misses you so,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">it's filled with the love you wanted to know.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Weeks are like months, and months are like years,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">you wait for the day when you'll have no more fears.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Days go by slowly, how many have passed?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Yes, loving a soldier brings bitterness and fears,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">loneliness, sadness and despondent years.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Loving a soldier isn't much fun,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">but it's worth the price when the battle is won</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">and remember he is thinking of you everyday,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">he's sad and he's lonely while so far away</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">so love him and miss him and hold your head high,</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">be strong and have faith, wipe that tear from your eye.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 20px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It's the high price you pay for loving a soldier</span></span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-28124892674766767322010-06-26T14:30:00.000-04:002010-06-26T14:30:05.961-04:002 Poems no titles yet...Come HomeHello world, Hope you're listening<br />
Forgive me if I’m young<br />
For speaking out of turn<br />
There’s someone I’ve been missing<br />
They’re in their own place trying to make it right<br />
But I’m tired of justifying<br />
Come home<br />
Cause I’ve been waiting for you<br />
For so long<br />
And right now there's a war between the vanities<br />
But all I see is you and me<br />
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known<br />
So come home<br />
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I love you and I miss you<br />
And everyday I wake up and have this ache in my chest.<br />
And sometimes I just sleep in because I know<br />
when I wake up your not gonna be there.<br />
But it’s ok because we will be together again.<br />
One of these days I'm gonna wake up and<br />
were both gonna feel that same beat in our hearts,<br />
And whenever that day is, I’ll still be waiting for you.<br />
And you’ll come back home to meScorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-77872229976903339512010-06-09T19:17:00.001-04:002010-06-09T19:18:16.161-04:00She Who Waits Also Serves<span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Last night was the first time I found it difficult getting a full eight hours of sleep.I kept putting off the whole "going to bed concept". I've done fine the past 5 months and last night was the first time I tried to fight going to bed. Why you may ask? We talked on the webcam for about 20 minutes until he had to get to work. Just seeing and hearing his voice puts a great big smile on my face. It makes me feel like he is right here with me. But I still long for his touch and the feeling of being complete. Something about the absence of his presence got to me. In the middle of our conversation his internet started getting fuzzy and in a second we lost connection. When I turned around to get into bed it was so hard. I am not sure why it was. I just kept putting the sleep off. I tucked my sheets in and held on tightly to a teddy bear he sent me. Sure it helps but having him not there makes me feel empty at times. That's when I remembered I'm not like any other girlfriend. I'm a military girlfriend. I normally don't like to classify myself, yet here I am. Now preparing myself for another 7 months of deployment and struggling through another month without him. The months are starting to go by quicker. I may not get to see him as often as I like. I may not get to hold him in my arms all through the night.</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">But deep in my heart I truly know, he is the one that I love and I can't let him go. I've been blessed to have someone stand up for me in the face of war without having met them. Now Noel is doing the same for me, my family, our friends and the entire country. Have to tell you it's a completely different feeling. At first I felt selfish for not wanting him to go and at the same time I felt defeated because I had no say if he stayed or not. But now after reading his letters, and seeing pictures of him in Afghanistan it really is incredible and my heart beats so much stronger. I was always proud of him but now I am so much prouder than I was. It's easier to watch the news and know that your man isn't the one fighting out out there, that he'll be home sleeping under the same roof instead of dealing with the pain and fear of him being out in the middle of the desert in a dangerous war. I am thankful for other military wives who have supported their husbands, loved and waited on them so they can protect our country. I'm thankful for their patience and strength that has allowed their men to be fearless and victorious throughout the years. I'm praying that God gives me that same strength, love, patience, and encouragement to get through these tough months. I knew it wouldn't be easy but I know that there is a reason for me to be a military girlfriend. It's going to be it's very own chapter in my journey in life.</span></span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-22880339986870582952010-05-31T08:19:00.000-04:002010-05-31T08:19:00.054-04:00Compare/Contrast<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">You stay up for 16 hours.<br />
He stays up for days on end.<br />
You take a warm shower every morning to help you wake up.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">He goes days or weeks without running water.<br />
You complain of a "headache" and stay in bed.<br />
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.<br />
You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.<br />
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.<br />
You complain about how hot it is.<br />
He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.<br />
You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.<br />
He doesn't get to eat today.<br />
You make your bed and wash your clothes.<br />
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.<br />
You get your hair done<br />
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.<br />
You're angry because you worked 5 minutes over.<br />
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.<br />
You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.<br />
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.<br />
You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.<br />
He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.</span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-79987258305184235382010-05-22T12:31:00.001-04:002010-05-22T12:38:53.577-04:00Reality Settles In<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 5px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 5px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">...a lot of things I will probably never be.<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />...a lot of things I will try to be.<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />...a lot of things I will fail to be.<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />It has been awhile since I last wrote and I had some thinking to do before I posted anything. I've realized the best I can do is improve upon who I was yesterday, accept my shortcomings and flaws, and put my best foot forward everyday. This deployment has made this painfully obvious to me. It's been almost 6 months now and I am realizing who I am and how I've affected people. This is reality time and you rediscover yourself more than ever before. </span></span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 5px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 5px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span> </span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 5px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 5px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">After a few weeks of not hearing his voice I started to become depressed and anxious. Hoping that today will be the day he calls. Today I will get an email or something in the mail. But I was only kidding myself. I kept having high expectations every morning and when I didn't hear anything I was upset. I finally sucked it up and dealt with it and implanted in my brain that when he does have the time to contact me it will be the best day. Another 2 weeks went by and I didn't have those expectations on my mind anymore. Took everyday as it came. But last Tuesday morning I turned the TV on and the first thing that came on the screen "Suicide bomber in Afghanistan kills 18 soldiers". My mind started to race wondering if he was there and saw it happen. I didn't even come close to thinking he was one of them until someone at work said those magic words. I had to go outside and cry for a minute and then suck it back in to be strong. The rest of the day I kept repeating to myself no news is good news. It didn't help that my coworkers were pestering me if I heard from him. I went out with my friends that night to see Iron Man 2 and it was great to not be focused on Afghanistan. As I was driving home my cell phone rang by the time I got to it I missed the call. A very strange number too then BuZzZ there was a voice-mail and his voice was on the message. The biggest smile appeared on my face just to hear him. As upset as I was not getting to the phone on time I was hoping he would call my room number. Sure enough as soon as I walked inside the phone was ringing and his voice was the greatest thing to hear. He sounded great we talked and laughed for the time that he had but was ordered to get back to work. It's amazing how the sound of his voice makes everything disappear. </span></span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-29185893086683116192010-05-08T12:22:00.002-04:002010-05-09T09:34:11.324-04:00It's Killing Me Not Knowing..<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Mood changes are happening again. I barely heard from him this week and all I got was a text message saying they are moving him but he can't tell me where or why. All he said was "it's military reasons I can't tell you". I feel like I'm dealing with someone who is in the FBI and everything is TOP SECRET. It is absolutely killing me. I haven't heard from him since that day and I just wish I could know where he is on his way to or why they are making him transfer. I didn't even get to say "I love you/be safe/take care" it was just a text and now I'm sitting here wondering. I miss him a lot and starting to become moody again. As if not seeing him isn't upsetting enough and now I am becoming jealous of other couples and angry at girls who say I haven't seen my boyfriend a few days or this week pisses me off. But I need to be strong and not let it effect me. So Frustrated! </span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-85780378236015119052010-05-02T13:16:00.004-04:002010-05-02T19:29:05.536-04:00Why am I doing this?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #323232;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So here I am rambling about my thoughts during this deployment. But I never really explained myself for it. I came on this site looking for support and advice. My boyfriend is a Navy Seabee and currently located in Afghanistan.This is his second tour but my first. He left January 4th and was sent to California until 2 weeks ago where he is now overseas. These past 4 months have been difficult yet easy all at the same time. The reason I say this is because we had constant communication. He had his cell phone and would always text or call whenever he had the chance. We even used the webcam a few times when he had a free moment. So it was easy because I knew he was safe and around. Now he is in a foreign country the cell phone has been turned off and we barely get to talk to each other. It's only been 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel it. I miss talking to him and hearing his voice every night. I know I will get through this. It almost feels like you're in a breakup but not because there isn't a burning hurt deep down inside only loneliness. Today was my second overseas phone call. I heard planes flying in the background but it wasn't just any plane it was the real deal F-14's. That gave me the goosebumps. Reality has finally settled in. He's not in California anymore, it's wartime. His orders state he won't be coming home until next January. I'm proud to say I am almost at the midway of this deployment but at the same time I would like it to be over already. I feel like I've been stuck in the airport waiting for the weather to clear. I am trying to cope with his deployment and other issues. As General Holden on Army Wives said "We are the lucky ones. Soldiers train for their mission but for families their mission is to carry on. How do you train for that?" He couldn't have said it any better. </span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-67678767482833317182010-04-29T21:05:00.003-04:002010-06-19T11:54:51.549-04:00You Know You're a Military Girlfriend When..<ol><li>You don't mind the random phone calls</li>
<li>The smallest contact (simple email) from your soldier makes you feel like a million bucks</li>
<li>The recruitment commercials on TV and in the Movie theater make you cry because you're so proud. </li>
<li>"No news is good news" becomes your motto</li>
<li>Planning care packages and putting them in the mail is very exciting.</li>
<li>You can't stand girls who talk about missing their boyfriends who live 15 minutes or an hour away. You want to yell "drive and go see them" because if you had the chance you would jump on the first plane to go see your soldier no matter how far it is. </li>
<li>You go from happy, to sad, to lonely, to angry, to proud and back to happy in matter of an hour.</li>
<li>You wear his pajamas to bed</li>
<li>You get up in the middle of the night to check your email</li>
<li>You suddenly have an obsession with anything military related</li>
<li>You see someone wearing an army, navy, usmc shirt and you get this overwhelming urge to talk to them.</li>
<li>You make friends with strangers online just because they are in the same situation as you are and the only ones who truly understand what you are going through.</li>
<li>You are already deciding on what to wear to the airport.</li>
<li>You know all the time differences between where you are and Afghanistan.</li>
<li>You talk to your friends and family so much that they know everything about him. His full name, birthday, favorite TV show and color etc..</li>
<li>You sleep with your phone right next to you under the pillow. </li>
<li>When you try to explain to civilians what your boyfriend does for a living they give a blank look because they don't understand a third of what you said.</li>
<li>Finally.. You are oceans apart and you're always counting the time difference on your hands. </li>
</ol>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-48119184901151215742010-04-27T19:37:00.001-04:002010-04-27T19:37:39.318-04:00True Love<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So I've had this on my mind when I'm out with my friends and feeling lonely. I keep reminding myself military relationships are the product of many tears born both in happiness and despair, nights alone wondering where he is, if he's safe. It's looking at pictures, knowing that's the only way I can see his face, calling my voicemail to hear his voice, and not washing his clothes until they've lost his scent. But it's all worth it in the end, because I know I have one of the purest loves in the world because my Soldier truly knows the meaning of Honor, Courage, and Commitment, not only to the U.S. Navy, but to me. And that makes everything worthwhile.</span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-39186491240177252502010-04-21T19:20:00.001-04:002010-04-21T19:20:35.613-04:00Time is Always on Your Side<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">A coworker said to me today, "time is always on your side". At first I got annoyed thinking how would they know? Are they feeling how I am? Do they know what it is like to have your best friend and love of your life leave you because the government says so? Do they know what this emptiness feels like? You know you're strong but it does hit you like a truck where all you feel is lonely, scared and sad. Every minute feels like hours and every hour feels like a day and a day feels like forever. I stopped counting down the days until he comes back home because it is just complete torture. 255 days left...sigh. So now I have gone to the month method, 8 more months doesn't sound as bad as 255 days! If that's even the case he could be extended up to 2 years! But the days do go by fast when I'm kept busy but I always miss him. Everything thing brings back memories whether its a song, food, movie, tv show, friends talking about what he would say in a given situation...etc. I feel like time has stopped when I think of him. But after giving some thought she was right. No matter what time won't go by any slower, because every minute, hour and day will bring me closer to him so a little optimism never hurts! </span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-53384836375951567172010-04-18T12:03:00.003-04:002010-04-21T19:04:43.094-04:00It doesn't matter what rank or branch!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">They say mission first people always. But that's crap and what does it mean anyway? Because the military comes first always period and we deal with it or we move on. It doesn't matter if your significant other is a colonel, general, sergeant, infantry or in the navy, army, marine... because worrying about your soldier feels exactly the same at wartime. Forget the rank and branch because people are just people. I say this because I was talking to a girl at work whose husband is a marine. She thinks that because my soldier is in the Navy it is nothing compared to what she has gone through. It doesn't matter we all feel the same at wartime when he has deployed.</span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8646427353903877494.post-11451550161659851252010-04-15T19:43:00.003-04:002010-05-22T13:31:38.633-04:00Something Different..<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">This is my first time having a blog. Sure I've written in journals but never actually made something personal showed to the public. So here we go! Where do I start? As you can tell my title explains it all! Someone very close to me gave the idea of writing a blog in hope that maybe you might have some comments, give advice or just interest. You may be going through the same thing as I am or maybe not. I did this for all military girlfriends/wives. I know they have support groups for the military spouses but not everyone can participate, this is my way of contributing a lending ear and maybe you might be feeling the same as I do. So here it goes!</span></span></span>Scorpion Queenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10520784847056687607noreply@blogger.com0