Forget the shiny armor, I'm loving my hero in his DIRTY CAMO'S.

Saturday, July 10, 2010


I've been trying to post something for a couple of weeks now and I can't seem to put my thoughts and feelings into words. I'm so drained of energy and emotions. This week has definitely been a tough one but here I am staring at the screen for a bit until I can get my thoughts together. I have to say I made it halfway through this deployment and 6 more months to go. No matter how impossible it may seem that you can't go on it is possible in time, the grief lessens. It may not go away completely, but after awhile it's not so overwhelming. You start to get used to the fact that time will go on and sooner than you know it he will be back. This year's July 4th I was very patriotic and proud of our soldiers. I dressed up in red, white and blue and wore his dog tags proudly. As proud as I was it was also a very hard day. At night watching the fireworks made me miss him so much. It just reminds you of the sacrifices that were made. I was able to talk to him that morning and should feel really good about the fact that we can stay in touch but it is always so bittersweet. I miss him so much it hurts. I guess I was just having one of those bad days. When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see if struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through.  With all that said... "Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference" by Winston Churchill. As hard as this has been for me already, it really hasn't been all that bad. Along with sadness, that's a whole mix of emotions that I've been feeling too.

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